Change of Plans

Jack went back for treatment yesterday but it turns out he will now be seeing an Oncology Specialist as the specialist who has been with him since this started is moving overseas. Shame that he has to change, but we have seen the Oncologist, Dr Moore, on a previous occasion and he seems great, so hopefully it will all go well. Jack continues to remain in remission - still eating well, although not as manically as when on the Prednisone - but his behaviour is changing. He appears far less confident than he normally would be, and is nervous around strangers. Hardly surprising I guess - it must feel that everytime someone other than me comes near him they stick a needle or a tube in. Jack has been on a Cancer Diet now since January 4, and I know he is craving carbohydrates. He managed to find a bowl of cat food at a neighbour's house last night and wolfed into it so quickly it was ridiculous. He still goes out with his dog walker every weekday, and she feels he is coping well with it, but even the walker - Sally - who has known Jack most of his life commented on his lack of confidence ... she put it well when she said "he acts like he is in trouble". I am trying to give him as much love and reassurance as possible and he is very happy when it is just the two of us - less happy when others are around. He has another treatment next Tuesday as his White Blood Cell count was too low this week to take another round. It is always frustrating when that happens - I am anxious to get on with it, and it also adds another week to the protocol. I have learnt so much already - stuff I would prefer not to have learnt - but I have been amazed to find out how many others are in the same situation. So sad.